i have thoughts i don't describe, things i have not siad. if i die now i worry what would become of them. and p eople i have not talk to for a long time. are they even real. i sleep and tomorrow may come but who knows what the morrow brings so subtle. if i was even ther. i thought friends and yet sof ar from me. what a pity science could not overcomeance and i could not overcome this parts. i was so far thinking of coming back and so far it just seem enormous