Nowhere to Go

I am so scared.
With that wealth of knowledge.
The realisation that the world is so complicated.
It spins out of control
No institution, no person can control it.
I am scared of the insane world

I can’t ran Home
To my Father’s arm
I am orphaned
Left hanging on the thread of blood
And how do I know that would even last
In this insane world

Can I close my eyes.
But for a moment
Shut everything out
Would that be ignorant or weak?
Just how can I escape—
Living in this insane world

When I feel like screaming,
Like crying
Like dying
Like running
Then I know that
I am part of the insane world

And that makes me sane.

Please help me.
I can’t take this anymore
The rush of blood in my head
The feelings in my hand
The trembling in my leg
The tiredness in my body

I don’t want this—
Not anymore
Please just take this away
Let me go to sleep; to be dead
Give me rest--
From the tiredness in my body

And that makes me sane

Goodnight.